I’ve had a serious case of the blues this week. I’m not prone to it during the Advent season, I’m actually more likely to get this way in the summer when it’s hot. But this week has been one of the most depressing I’ve had in a long time.
It definitely has to do with the cold going around the house. With everyone sick, including me, I’m working pretty much round the clock to keep myself going just to take care of the kids. Chores aren’t getting done on schedule and I’m feeling overwhelmed by all I need to get done.
I’ve also got obligations at church, I’m overseeing the decorating, and it’s feeling more and more daunting each minute. I love decorating trees and making the church look beautiful, but this week, for the first time in years, I’m dreading it. I’m terrified I won’t have the support needed, I’m worried about trying to get things done with two little kids, and I’m not looking forward to the dust from the storage room irritating my already unwell respiratory system.
Well, now that that’s out of my system, and I’ve looked at it, well I think I can see what exactly my problem is. I’ve been isolated this week, and because of that, I may be becoming a little more “me” focused than usual. Because here’s the thing: this season isn’t about me.
The Advent Season is about celebrating the birth of Christ, and it’s about sharing the Love of God with those around us. Love isn’t found in an angry, self deprecating heart, and it isn’t found in trying to blame and judge others for pitfalls as well. It also fortunately isn’t in having a perfect schedule of Holiday events and a smiling, perfect family. (Mine is too busy blowing their noses to look even close to perfect.) Love is in compassion, taking the time to listen, giving of your time and energy, investing in others, even if they don’t recognize, or sometimes appreciate it.
Reminds me of the follow up verse of probably the most memorized verse in the entire Bible:
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.